Choosing Grace

Hi. Thank you for being here.

What I wrote wasn’t expected for this post. It just happened, just now. I don’t have much to say about it. I wasn’t sure if it’d be something I’d want to share here or not. But alas, here it is, a display of my humanity.

I’ve started a draft post about self-love, to continue with the Four Questions. I’ll finish it out eventually — hopefully, that’ll be next week’s post.

Choosing Grace

I write now 
To encourage myself
To give myself
Grace
Because my mind
Has been back and forth 
Debating whether

To push me

Or accept that 
I’m failing

Or again come to terms with
The fact that
Nothing matters
In the most beautiful way

Or recognize my cyclical thoughts
Coming back again during
Situations similar but
Completely different
Though my
Brain and body are conditioned to 
React or proact? in specific ways
For protection

Or give me grace
While acknowledging and 
Recognizing what’s going on within me
While what’s going on without me is
Shifting and 
Crowding my headspace, granting me
An opportunity to practice what I’ve been
Talking about while trying to
Shake off those lichens that I
Know are still attached only when 
Conditions raise the hull into 
Visibility 

Or shame me for not posting 
The post I’ve been 
Wanting to post for 
Like three or four weeks

But I’m encouraging
Gently asking myself
To choose
Grace.

With Love,

Sally